Wow!  It is amazing how easily I was pulled down in to a total funk!  I had a couple bumpy days, well a couple bumpy weeks, and let so much slide.  Everything that makes me feel great, I just dropped!  Barely juicing, eating crappy food, still practicing yoga but not as regularly, just generally letting that old story of  “See, when you take care of yourself, everything else falls apart”.  Nothing earth shattering but, anyone with a teenager can relate.  Someday, the unnamed party may just google what Mommy’s been up to so we will leave all the boring details out.  Suffice it to say, I feel like I am on the rollercoaster of slamming doors, eye rolling, dumpster bedrooms, I love you/I hate you all in the same breath, drama …  the rollercoaster is running and no one is at the controls.  I fell back into, just hold everything as tight as you can, manage, control and things will feel safer.  Not true!  My story is, Be Prepared, the rug will get yanked!  And you know what, sometimes it does get yanked. But, when I spend all my time holding on for dear life, I miss all the other wonderful moments in between.  I can’t believe how those old feelings came back with a vengeance.

Here is what I learned.  Breathe.  The tools and power I have found in my yoga practice really do work!  Sure it’s easy to spout off all kinds of advice and yogic wisdom when things are going smoothly.  It’s when the ‘you know what’ hits the fan, you feel yourself slipping back into old patterns of coping, that you really need to put your money where your mouth is.

happinessToday I woke up, made my green juice, practiced yoga and got on with my day.  I am reminding myself to keep coming back to the center where I feel whole and where I can, most easily, see clearly and move forward.  If the peace and serenity aren’t happening on the inside, no way will I find it on the outside.

Wishing you that peaceful place!  Love ~ Carlene

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