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It has been 6 weeks from my last chemo. I am so thankful that part of this process is over and I will forever pray for those going through it. It’s funny, when I think back to each time sitting in that chair, I remember the person (patient) in the same chair across from me. Each person with their own story, strength, fears, and prognosis. Each chemo treament I recieved is marked by a face. Others may have labeled them “first one” or “half way there” or “last one” but I remember them by who was with me and that man or woman sitting across from me in the chemotherapy treatment room. I may not have spoken to them or know exactly why they were there but I remember their faces I have met many amazing people along the way but the ones I think of most are the two women I met at a “look good, feel good” class (aka~how to draw on eyebrows), those brave warriors sitting in chairs across from me during our chemo treatments and the women/men close to me that have or are going through treatment now. I have a different understanding of this experience and will find a way to use that to help others going through a health challenge. God, my family, friends, amazing healthcare team, yoga and meditation practice carried me through this. I will continue to let that carry others.

I am feeling more energy and stronger all the time. My hair has started to come back and it cant grow fast enough for me! I’ve spent the last few days visitng my father and step mother in FL so I am hoping the extra sunshine will help it grow like grass! I’ve been walking around FL half bald and do not want to put a hat back on when I get back to NH! I have two more minor surgeries, one on May 5 and one probably end of summer or early fall. Thank you all for your support! Each text, phone call, FB message, card, kind word has been appreciated and made a difference. I am always happy to share what I have experienced and learned along the way so NEVER hesistate to ask me a question about my experience particuarly if it can help you or another person going through this.

This coming Monday, Matt will run the Boston Marathon for Dana Farber Cancer Research for the tenth time. We began our involvement with Dana Farber back in 1999 as a way of giving back for the care our mothers recieved during each of their cancer battles and as a way of honoring their memory and keeping them close for our growing family. The Dana Farber marathon challenge has been a part of our family history from the time Chloe was a newborn. We have experienced great joys and tragic lows in this process. I am so proud and always amazed at Matt’s ability to exceed his fundraising goals and run the marathon with a true purpose! Chloe, Jack and I will be at mile 25 cheering him on and knowing that each step he makes, he has and will continue to make a differnece for someone with cancer. Matt has always run with the names people have shared with him either in honor or memory of on his shirt. We can’t fit all those names on his shirt anymore. He will always keep each name with him from the first race in 1999 to whatever race he is currently running. We write each name, each year on a banner that we hold at mile 25 and we pin a list to his shirt. Those names are the true marathon runners and he runs to honor them.

I have my eye on the end of this tunnel. I have learned a great deal along the way and grown as a person. I am looking forward to seeing where this new path will take me. I am going back to teaching yoga, practicing regularly and continuing my yoga training. I love sharing what this has meant to me and how it has changed my life. This site has been greatly neglected over the past six months but I am committed to getting back to writing and sharing. I’d love it if you’d stay with me and become a part of that journey. If you are interested, just sign up on the website for email updates. Each time I share a journal entry, you will be notified via email.

Words can’t express the gratitude I feel for my health and each person in my life. You each have helped me more than you know.
Love Carlene

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